Mommy isn't sure if she believes in anything other than things happen for a reason, so now that Mommy has an angel named Andrew, she's going to pray to him. It's 4:30 in the morning and Mommy can't sleep thinking about how precious her little Andrew was. So tiny and perfect to Mommy in every way...each little wrinkle of your face and curve of your body makes Mommy smile to think she had such a perfect little boy.
You were sent here to Mommy and Daddy for a reason but right now Mommy is having a hard time understanding why you had to be taken away so soon. You were the first little boy to hold Mommy's hand and stole her heart from the second you were conceived. Daddy loved you from that moment, too. We always wanted little boys in our life and you were and are such a blessing to us and always will be. We love you so much. No one will ever forget your short little life...not us, not your grandparents, your uncles, aunts, cousins...not even your nurses and doctors. You will be in everyone's hearts 'til we get to spend time with you again. I hope you're giving your Great Gramma, Great Nana and Great Papa big hugs and they are comforting you like you will comfort Mommy, Daddy, and Sammy some day long from now.
Right now Mommy needs you to look out for your brother Sammy. Mommy can't sleep thinking about and worrying about Sammy and she and Daddy need you to be his guardian angel, okay? He really needs you to look out for him. He may technically be older than you by a few minutes, but you two are brothers and he needs his brother right now. And Mommy and Daddy need you to help him fight to get better so that he can carry on your memory for the rest of his life. He's getting sicker and Mommy and Daddy need the medicine the doctors gave him to work so he can get better instead. We think he misses you, so you need to make sure that he knows you're right there with him, okay? Please comfort him so he knows it's okay to rest and get big and strong. He's already showing us he's a strong little boy like you were.
Andrew - Please make sure you look out for us, too? We are so sad to not be able to hold you anymore, but we hold you in our hearts every moment of every day and your little lamby is watching over us in bed tonight like he watched over you in your bed. We know that you are keeping us company through lamby, but monkey is with Sammy and monkey and you need to watch out for Sammy, okay? Please help Sammy, Andrew. Your brother really needs you now more than Mommy and Daddy. It's okay to leave Mommy and Daddy and look out for Sammy. If Mommy and Daddy need you, we'll let you know.
We love you so much, Andrew. We know you're not hurting anymore and that's so important to us. We promise to stay strong for Sammy. You are such a special little boy and we will see you sometime when the time is right. You will always be Mommy's and Daddy's little boy, our little peanut. We love you and send you big hugs and big kisses every time you cross our minds and hearts. xo
This is so beautiful. My name is Jill and I got the link to your blog on the ICN page. You and your family are so amazing. I hope you can see through the ICN page that you are not alone even though it can seem like that in the ICN.Everyone is praying for your family. I never met you or your boys, but they have both touched me. Tonight I will go to bed giving my children an extra kiss and hug and loving them more because of how much you loved Andrew. Thank you for sharing your story with us.
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