March for Babies 2013 - Our Walk to Remember

I realized that since I've been on vacation this week, I never came back to write about our March for Babies event last weekend.  March for Babies is an event that is done throughout the nation.  Our event was at the hospital where our boys lived for their short lives.  It was rain or shine and although it was threatening rain, it held off until after our walk...and even after our family barbecue!

Mother's Day Anger

So it's here.  Mother's Day.  The day that a year ago, I dreamed of spending with my babies.  Cuddling and smiling and having a good day.  Now I just know that it's not a good day.  It's not something to celebrate.  Who celebrates not having their babies here?  I know I'm a mom...everyone can tell me that...but I don't feel it.  I feel lost.  I feel like my world is crashing again because this stupid Hallmark holiday is just a reminder, yet again, of what I don't have.

Busy lady

So I guess it has been awhile since I posted. I feel like the past couple of weeks have been a whirlwind. I've been really focused on my March of Dimes, March for Babies team. I'm so very excited for the event on Saturday!  Not only is it an opportunity to bring awareness to the fact that not every NICU experience has a happy ending, but it is an opportunity to meet people and spend time with friends and family. I am so proud of my team!  We have raised almost $5,500 so far!  I set a high goal of $5,000 for my team and with nearly 40 people joining our family in this walk, we did it!!  I can't even put into words how thankful I am that people understand the seriousness of a full term pregnancy and good solid research for the hath are system to treat those women and babies who don't make it to full term.

National Infertility Awareness Week

I realize it's been awhile since I've posted.  I'm feeling like such a slacker not getting things posted here, but I'm going to take a minute for a PSA on National Infertility Awareness Week.  If you follow me on Facebook, you will notice that I've posted there about it.  A MoM friend of mine was posting, and I definitely used her posts to help me out.  For over two years I didn't speak up.  I didn't talk about the fact that I was going through fertility treatments.  I kept it to myself...and cried by myself.  It's not fair.  Infertility is a disease.  It is a MEDICAL condition.  I still really hope to work with legislators to get it recognized as such in all FIFTY states, but that's something I'm still working on right now and will post more when I have more info!  For now, I am going to repost my facts from my Facebook page to here for my readers to see and for my friends and family to see all in one place.

Keeping Busy

I've noticed that now that I'm going to have more time in my weeks and days with my new job, I'm searching for ways to fill it.  Not that that's difficult.  Cleaning my house (and keeping it that way) would be a big start...but hey, you do what you gotta do.  One of the big things I'm throwing myself into is forms of charity work.

Ch-ch-changes

I recently posted this on my Facebook, so this is repetitive for most, but I got a new job!!

Alone

Let me first say that I don't mean this to at all be about anyone specific...it's about my feelings in general right now.  Probably mostly ungrounded, but I just need to get it out there...  This isn't a pity party...just need to get my feelings out because I just don't feel like I have anywhere else to turn with them right now...

A few months ago, talking to an college roommate, she mentioned another friend (and roommate) of ours who I haven't talked to a lot lately.  The friend lost a sibling while we were in college.  She said that she felt that reaching out to me to rekindle a friendship that hasn't been present for awhile would be unfair to me because she remembers all the people that reached out to her and then disappeared in her grief journey.  I appreciated that and thought it was kind despite not really understanding it.  Recently, I've noticed exactly what she was talking about...