It's been awhile. And honestly, it's time for me to admit that this blog has served its purpose. I started this blog to share the journey of our twins through the NICU and hoping that they would be coming home. Unfortunately, that did not happen and instead, this became my grief outlet. It became my focus and my daily routine to be able to release pent up emotions and frustrations.
It's time though. It's time to start a new journey with a new blog and a new focus. So I present to you...
Wednesday, November 25, 2015
It may have been three years since we said goodbye to Sammy and Andy...and Ben may be 18 months old...but I still fight those feelings...those same feelings I had both before I was ever pregnant at all and the ones that first year after Sammy and Andy were born and passed. I still ache for my babies. I still struggle with being thankful...
Friday, November 6, 2015
I have found that the more I write, the more I wonder why...and the less I write, the more I wonder why I don't. I am trying to find my place and the meaning of this blog to me now.
Friday, October 2, 2015
I think sometimes people think I have it all put together. That I am strong and that I move through each day with ease. In reality? My house is a mess, my mind is a mess, and I feel utterly overwhelmed and like a crazy person!
Thursday, September 3, 2015
If you asked me three years ago if I thought I'd be here, in this place, in this mindset, I would have told you no way in hell. Today, I look back and feel as though I have made the best choices for myself over the past three years and the best choices for my family. Me three years ago seems far away. I am a new me in many, many different ways.
Monday, August 31, 2015
As I look at all of the back-to-school photos on my Facebook timeline, I realize that if things were different, I could have two kids going to preschool for the first of two years. How is that possible? How is it possible that my boys would have been THREE in just a few short days? How have I made it through the past three years? I can't even figure it out...