Wednesday, November 25, 2015

I'm Still Fragile...Handle with Care

It may have been three years since we said goodbye to Sammy and Andy...and Ben may be 18 months old...but I still fight those feelings...those same feelings I had both before I was ever pregnant at all and the ones that first year after Sammy and Andy were born and passed.  I still ache for my babies.  I still struggle with being thankful...

Friday, November 6, 2015

Why I Write

I have found that the more I write, the more I wonder why...and the less I write, the more I wonder why I don't.  I am trying to find my place and the meaning of this blog to me now.

Friday, October 2, 2015

Behind Closed Doors...and Eyes...

I think sometimes people think I have it all put together.  That I am strong and that I move through each day with ease.  In reality?  My house is a mess, my mind is a mess, and I feel utterly overwhelmed and like a crazy person!

Thursday, September 3, 2015

Beginning Year 3 a New Me

If you asked me three years ago if I thought I'd be here, in this place, in this mindset, I would have told you no way in hell.  Today, I look back and feel as though I have made the best choices for myself over the past three years and the best choices for my family.  Me three years ago seems far away.  I am a new me in many, many different ways.

Monday, August 31, 2015

Coming up on Three...

As I look at all of the back-to-school photos on my Facebook timeline, I realize that if things were different, I could have two kids going to preschool for the first of two years.  How is that possible?  How is it possible that my boys would have been THREE in just a few short days?  How have I made it through the past three years?  I can't even figure it out...

Saturday, May 23, 2015

Showers and Rainbows

I was so lucky to celebrate a beautiful little rainbow with friends and friends I consider family today.

Sunday, May 17, 2015

Mother's Day 2015 and Thoughts on Parenting my Rainbow

This is a week late, but better late than never, right?

This year marked my third Mother's Day.  My third Mother's Day without Sammy and Andy.  But my first Mother's Day with Ben.  So to many, I guess it looks like my first "real" Mother's Day.