Friday, March 28, 2014

What 24 Weeks Feels Like

So we made it…24 weeks today.  I woke up both elated and nervous.  I was in the hospital at 24 weeks last time…for the second time.  I'd had the steroid shot to mature my babies' lungs.  This time, I have avoided the hospital all together.  I haven't had any of the complications that hinted at my hospitalization last time either.  It's an eery feeling to think that maybe, just maybe, I will be avoiding the ICN and bringing home my healthy, happy baby boy.

Sunday, March 9, 2014

Our Happy Valentine's Day

I'm quite delayed in typing up this post, and I have been meaning to post this for 3 weeks now!  I need to get better about staying on top of this thing.  Life has stayed quite busy for us lately, but we're getting there!

On Valentine's Day we went in for our follow-up ultrasound and check-up at 18 weeks.  The best news we got was that the abruption that I had at 15 weeks was no longer visible on our ultrasound.  Additionally, with no bleeding, the doctors were fairly confident that it was gone.

On top of that, we found out that we're having another boy.  I had told Cam the whole time that it was a boy!!  Mommy instincts were definitely right, and there's no doubt about it!!

Saturday, January 25, 2014


So I told myself I would blog more...but between work, spending time with my husband, and dealing with all my emotions of being pregnant again, I haven't been able to find the energy...

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

New Year, New Faith

I know it's been awhile since I posted...yet again.  One of my new year resolutions is to keep up with my blog again.  I'm going to stick with one post a week...more if I have time, but one post a week.  I have found that this is my therapy and by not posting, I don't have a place that I vent and express myself.  My other new year resolution...the really big to restore my faith.

Friday, December 13, 2013

Holidays 2013

It's been awhile since I posted.  To be honest, I don't have a good excuse.  I've had a lot going through my head and a lot to say, but just not sure why I didn't come here...part of it is probably because I wasn't sure how to say any of it...part of it because I probably shouldn't.

Friday, October 18, 2013

Day 17: Time

There are no words for the length of time I have been missing my baby boys....just that I've been missing them for too long and know that I will continue to miss them.  Each day is a day further from their sweet, sensitive little bodies...but a step closer to someday getting to hold my babies again...

Day 16: Seasons

My favorite season is by far fall.  I definitely enjoy all the seasons, but fall is the best, in my opinion.  Summer gets too hot, spring is all muddy, and winter is way too long (and too cold sometimes, too!).  Fall, the temperatures are perfect.  Pumpkins and apples are fresh and yummy!  The leaves are changing and it is beautiful all around me.  Living in the Northeast with four different seasons is definitely a plus.  Besides, we have some of the prettiest foliage!

Fall is also Halloween and Thanksgiving.  I love carving my pumpkins and Thanksgiving is a favorite holiday in our home.  We love cooking and spending time with our families.  The food that you get to make in the fall is definitely the best. :)  Pumpkin pie, donuts, apple crisp, sweet potato casserole, turkey, stuffing...all so yummy.

I like getting ready to hibernate for winter...planning the books I will read while curled up in my blanket.  Catching up with movies and crocheting and knitting.  I am a home body and it's a time to be able to curl up at home and just enjoy being in my home.
Fall is probably the one time of year that it is definite that things are changing.  The leaves are changing colors and falling off of the trees.  It is also the season my boys were born in.  It is bittersweet.  I missed last fall in my haze of depression.  This year, I got to enjoy it.  Though it was hard at times...realizing that I'm not celebrating fall with my babies like I should be.

Change.  It is that reminder that things change and life has changed so very much.  Of the people that are still here and those that have walked out of our lives.  It is both painful and refreshing.  Change is hard though.  I like change, to an extent, but it is hard to see people you thought would always be there leave.  For me change is also a fresh start.  A way to start new and move forward.  A reminder to move forward.  Despite what life has thrown at us, we are accepting change and moving forward.