I wish I were still pregnant

Today has been a really difficult day and I am really not ready to talk about why. What I am feeling at this exact moment though is that I wish I were still pregnant. Despite everything I complained about and everything that was so difficult about my pregnancy I am really wishing I could still be pregnant. Everything would be so much easier if I were. Looking at my now somewhat flat belly and knowing there's nothing in there but my stupid organs is disappointing and annoying and depressing all at the same time. I can't explain it at all. This is not what I wanted. I would take back all the bitching about my pregnancy issues in a second for just another week or two carrying my boys in my belly. Anything would be better than this...