CYG: Days 10-12

I know I'm a bit behind on this...I've been avoiding Day 10...I didn't want to take the picture.  And to be honest, I still haven't...I'll just type for now...add pictures later...

Day 10. Symbol Do you have a symbol for your baby/ies/child/ren? It could be a butterfly, dragonfly, a humming-bird, dolphin, seashell, share what it is and why it is so symbolic to you.

Our symbols for the boys...Andrew, our little lamb.  He has a little stuffed lamb that I bought him when I found out I was pregnant (before I knew there were two).  I bought Sammy's stuffed animal, a monkey, when I found out I was having two babies.  Before I even knew they were boys.  And to be honest, the stuffed animals could not have fit the two boys more perfectly.  Andy was always so calm, so laid back, my little lamb.  Sammy on the other hand, he was always so wiggly, my little monkey.  I even called him Mommy's little monkey every time I'd talk to him.  Their stuffed animals are their symbols.  Their headstones will have their animal on them.  Our reminder of their amazing little personalities.

Day 11. Supportive Friends/Family Who has been there for you?

This list is long.  I can't even begin to pull enough pictures to demonstrate this.  And on top of that, I don't have pictures of some of the most supportive people in our lives.  The people that we didn't know we had.  That we didn't even know before this experience.  Those people have become the most important people in our lives right now.  I won't name names for fear of forgetting people, but all I can say is that we are so very lucky to have the family, friends, and coworkers that we have.  There are no words to describe the deep gratitude that we feel for all of you (because I know many of you read this!).  Thank you, thank you, thank you....!!!

 Day 12. Scents Do you have a scent that you relate to your baby/ies/child/ren? Is it a candle scent, perfume, food or maybe a flower? Share it with us!

I haven't gotten to a point where there is a scent that has a positive connotation for the boys.  Right now the only scent that makes me think of them is the stupid hand sanitizer from the hospital.  That smell will forever be burned in my nostrils and will forever remind me of our many trips to the ICN.  We needed hand sanitizer every time we touched the boys.  Any time you'd touch anything around them.  That smell.  I can smell it now and the only bottle I have in my house is on the other side of the house.  I hate that that smell will forever make me think of them, but maybe eventually I will find another smell that will make me think of them....someday.