Day 15: Wave of Light

I was so impressed by all the friends that honored my and other babies yesterday as part of the Wave of Light.  It melts my hear that people would remember my boys but breaks it at the same time that so many other people know that hurt.  I saw so many candles lit on my newsfeed and not just for my boys.

I was also surprised at how emotional I felt yesterday.  I was hiding a lot of tears throughout the day.  I'm not sure anyone would know.  And who knows, maybe it's partially hormones.  But, I wanted to cry...strangely I felt like yesterday was a bigger day than the anniversaries of losing the boys.  I can't explain it, but it was hard.  Maybe it was the reminder of all the other babies, too.  I don't know.

But my candles were lit and I thought about and remembered my babies last night.  I cried for them and missed them.  But most of all, I loved them as I always have and will.  Unconditional.