Pregnancy Photos

I feel like I'm portraying an awful lot of negativity and totally don't mean to be!  I kind of meant this to be an outlet for frustrations and excitement and my "pregnancy journal" since I'm horrible about keeping the hard copy one I have...I think I'm using this a lot to explain how things are so different from what I thought they would be.  So many things are not going like I had originally thought they would...none necessarily BAD but different.  Nothing wrong with that though.  It's my journey with my husband and my boys.  I guess that's what this is more than anything...an explanation of my journey and the feelings that go with it...great, good, bad, and ugly.

So pregnancy photos...yes...those.  Belly pictures.  Okay, again, I refuse to post them on Facebook because it always annoys me when people do it.  It's interesting, don't get me wrong, but being someone dealing with infertility, it wasn't exactly a fun thing to see.  It had to be the right kind of day.  Even now I get irritated by belly photos (don't even get me started on ultrasound photos, that's a whole nother rant...) on Facebook.  I promise to post some pictures here, but, being at work right now, it's not something I have at my disposal...I'll add them later. :)

Anyways...so those belly photos that during my infertility journey I thought I would relish in taking and take one every week...right.  I didn't even take a pre photo.  Of course, my OHSS kind of threw off taking a picture when we first found out since the fluid in my belly made it look like I was four months pregnant at just 4 weeks. :-S  Needless to say my first belly photo was at 14 weeks.  I guess I was also skeptical of taking photos before 14 weeks because what if I had a miscarriage?  I didn't want proof of having something growing in my belly to look back at...it was really scary for me until 14 weeks.  Heck, it's still scary! I can't even begin to explain the nervousness and anxiety of being pregnant...yet again, another post to try to portray those feelings.

I did take another photo at 17 weeks.  And we haven't done another since.  Almost a month later.  I need to do one this week for sure...I can't put it off anymore!  Especially since my belly feels like it has doubled in size in four weeks!  The comparison is interesting...like I've said before...I was not a thin person to begin with, so if anything my belly just looks like it gets firmer...another reason not to share the pictures on Facebook...proof of my fatness for the world to see, no thanks!  Lol!

I am jealous of the girls who do the same clothes every week and then create this little flip book of their growing belly.  Ugh!  Wish I could do that or felt comfortable doing it...but on the other hand, this is my journey, right?  Nothing says I have to be like anyone else! :)

What I will be doing is maternity photos.  My fabulous friend has so graciously asked me to be her model so she can work on her portfolio and I'm all too excited to do it!  The key is getting the hubby on board.  He's not a big photo person...but I LOVE photos...a photographer at heart, I love having photos...being in the moment and having them taken, not so much...we are always most critical of pictures of ourselves, right?  Yeah, I have a hard time liking photos of myself...but maybe this will be different.  Proof of the two little beings actually being in my belly. :)

I asked other moms of multiples (MoMs) for ideas for photos and when to take them.  The recommendation ranged anywhere from 24 to 34 weeks...I'm not sure that I have that cute actual pregnant looking belly QUITE yet...but maybe by 24 I will.  Many warned me against waiting too long in the chance that I may not get to even do the photos because something could go wrong like bedrest or preterm labor.  But if the photos aren't even going to look like I'm remotely a cute pregnant lady, I'm not sure I'd want them anyways, so I think I'm willing to take the risk and wait until at least 28 weeks.  Plus, for our location, that's the most beautiful time of year...fall foliage.  Can't resist my beautiful trees full of colorful leaves. :)  I'm kind of excited to see what my friend comes up with for ideas.

In the meantime, I've been playing on Pinterest...addicting as all...but I've found some really cute maternity photos...check it out!!

My first prenatal yoga class tonight...perhaps I'll log back in to fill you in on how that goes! :)  I'm hoping it helps with my sciatica issues...and maybe even my gestational diabetes...