I vowed I wouldn't complain about being pregnant because I pushed away people who did that when I was trying to get pregnant and was so discouraged. HOWEVER, I'm going to take a quick break from that...
Firstly, whoever tells you that being pregnant is this most amazing and wonderful experience...yeah, well I haven't felt that way! All I ever told my husband is that I wanted to experience being pregnant because everyone says it's so awesome. And maybe I'll feel differently after the boys are here...and maybe I'm discouraged because I'm not carrying one, but two babies (and don't have the experience of carrying one to compare to). I have no idea. All I can say is it ISN'T EASY!!
Mind you, I was not the most healthy person before I got pregnant. My BMI made me "obsese" (yeah, okay, I hate that word...), but at the same time, good 'ole PCOS is kind of to blame for that. It's also to blame for not being able to lose the weight that I so desperately wanted to. PCOS means you have an insulin resistance (more on that later...) which is hard to fight off and deal with. It makes you tired so you don't want to exercise when you get home from a 12 hour day of work. But in turn, the fix is exercising (imagine that). Then the other problem is your body craves carbs (my fave, yum!), but the only way to curb that is to cut back on carbs. Um, hello, anyone else confused here? A very frustrating battle. So needless to say, I'm not in the best of shape.
Besides the point...from the very beginning, because of my OHSS, I was uncomfortable. I might as well have been 5 months pregnant with all that fluid in my belly...it was that distended and hard. And of course the OHSS made me sleepy as all...on top of growing two placentas making me sleepy! Now that I am 5 months pregnant, my belly is starting to grow at an unbelievable rate. I feel like I must look more and more pregnant every single day. Even my maternity clothes are starting to get too short for my belly! (And I'll b$*!*( about shopping for maternity clothes at a later time, too, you better believe it.)
All that growing means that my center of balance is thrown off...and on top of that my sciatic nerves are horribly fussy. The whole random pains that shoot from my hip all the way down my thigh are not all that fabulous. And of course this happens about once every week now. To top it off, every time I get up at work, my lower back will crack, but of course that doesn't provide the relief that actually being able to crack my back would provide...which of course I can't do because I can't twist my body enough to do it...UGH!
Another pregnancy pain that many people don't warn you about is your growing uterus...um, it HURTS!! And when you first feel it, you aren't really sure what it is...it's this twinging and pulling feeling that, when you're 10-12 weeks pregnant is one's biggest fear could be something else. Instead, it's your round ligaments stretching and pulling. And they HURT! Now at five months pregnant, I get a baby pushing down on the bottom of my uterus that accentuates that feeling well beyond anything I could ever describe.
Thankfully I've had very little swelling of my ankles, but that doesn't mean I don't ask my hubby to rub them any chance I can because they still hurt! And you want t know what the doctor's solution to all this is? Exercise. Ugh! I know!! If I didn't give all my energy to making two babies grow in my belly, maybe I'd have the energy to exercise!
On a good note, I do think I am going to try to do prenatal yoga. I'm hoping that will relieve ALL of these symptoms! A girl can hope! So yes, this is my complaining session about pregnancy pains and the realistic view that pregnancy may be really awesome, but it is a pain in the butt (literally!)!! I'm sure when it's all over, I'll want to do it all over again, but right now, my feelings toward that are saying not so much...
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