I'm Still Fragile...Handle with Care

It may have been three years since we said goodbye to Sammy and Andy...and Ben may be 18 months old...but I still fight those feelings...those same feelings I had both before I was ever pregnant at all and the ones that first year after Sammy and Andy were born and passed.  I still ache for my babies.  I still struggle with being thankful...

Beginning Year 3 a New Me

If you asked me three years ago if I thought I'd be here, in this place, in this mindset, I would have told you no way in hell.  Today, I look back and feel as though I have made the best choices for myself over the past three years and the best choices for my family.  Me three years ago seems far away.  I am a new me in many, many different ways.

Showers and Rainbows

I was so lucky to celebrate a beautiful little rainbow with friends and friends I consider family today.

Mother's Day 2015 and Thoughts on Parenting my Rainbow

This is a week late, but better late than never, right?

This year marked my third Mother's Day.  My third Mother's Day without Sammy and Andy.  But my first Mother's Day with Ben.  So to many, I guess it looks like my first "real" Mother's Day.

March for Babies 2015

It's been a hectic couple of weeks gearing up for the Upper Valley March for Babies at Dartmouth Hitchcock Medical Center!

Why I've Been MIA

I've been enjoying motherhood.  The best I can when sleep deprived and working a 32-hour-per-week job.  But what I heard over and over and didn't want to listen to?  IT'S HARD WORK!!!

So Thankful

I have slacked on my blog and I know it.  The last 8 months have been insanely emotional.  Happy, sad, frustrating, exciting, and everything in between, but we are here.  Alive and well.

What 24 Weeks Feels Like

So we made it…24 weeks today.  I woke up both elated and nervous.  I was in the hospital at 24 weeks last time…for the second time.  I'd had the steroid shot to mature my babies' lungs.  This time, I have avoided the hospital all together.  I haven't had any of the complications that hinted at my hospitalization last time either.  It's an eery feeling to think that maybe, just maybe, I will be avoiding the ICN and bringing home my healthy, happy baby boy.

Our Happy Valentine's Day

I'm quite delayed in typing up this post, and I have been meaning to post this for 3 weeks now!  I need to get better about staying on top of this thing.  Life has stayed quite busy for us lately, but we're getting there!

On Valentine's Day we went in for our follow-up ultrasound and check-up at 18 weeks.  The best news we got was that the abruption that I had at 15 weeks was no longer visible on our ultrasound.  Additionally, with no bleeding, the doctors were fairly confident that it was gone.

On top of that, we found out that we're having another boy.  I had told Cam the whole time that it was a boy!!  Mommy instincts were definitely right, and there's no doubt about it!!