Memorial Day

Today, I take a moment to think.  About all the people in my life that I should thank for their sacrifice.  Whether that sacrifice was a few months away from home, a few years...a limb...or a life.  My family history, past and present, is wrought with men and even a few women, who gave some or all of their lives for the freedoms that so many people in this country take for granted.

Reading and Such

I've found lately that I don't enjoy the things I used to.  I feel like maybe I'm this new and different person, but a part of me still longs for those parts of the old me.  I used to read.  All. The. Time.  I would read book after book and find it impossible to stop.  Now, it's like pulling teeth.  Only recently have I picked up a book and really gotten into it...let myself go somewhere in my own thoughts...in the words of the text.  It's hard because for the longest time my mind would wander.  I couldn't keep reading.  I was reading non-fiction...self-help and adoption books...because that's all that I could read in short bursts.

Openness

I started my new job this week...and keep forgetting to make phone calls, so obviously my blog has fallen by the wayside, too.  I need to set up a time on my calendar at least once a week just to update my blog! I feel like that's how crazy I have been lately.  Vacation event felt more busy than my normal work weeks!

March for Babies 2013 - Our Walk to Remember

I realized that since I've been on vacation this week, I never came back to write about our March for Babies event last weekend.  March for Babies is an event that is done throughout the nation.  Our event was at the hospital where our boys lived for their short lives.  It was rain or shine and although it was threatening rain, it held off until after our walk...and even after our family barbecue!

Mother's Day Anger

So it's here.  Mother's Day.  The day that a year ago, I dreamed of spending with my babies.  Cuddling and smiling and having a good day.  Now I just know that it's not a good day.  It's not something to celebrate.  Who celebrates not having their babies here?  I know I'm a mom...everyone can tell me that...but I don't feel it.  I feel lost.  I feel like my world is crashing again because this stupid Hallmark holiday is just a reminder, yet again, of what I don't have.

Busy lady

So I guess it has been awhile since I posted. I feel like the past couple of weeks have been a whirlwind. I've been really focused on my March of Dimes, March for Babies team. I'm so very excited for the event on Saturday!  Not only is it an opportunity to bring awareness to the fact that not every NICU experience has a happy ending, but it is an opportunity to meet people and spend time with friends and family. I am so proud of my team!  We have raised almost $5,500 so far!  I set a high goal of $5,000 for my team and with nearly 40 people joining our family in this walk, we did it!!  I can't even put into words how thankful I am that people understand the seriousness of a full term pregnancy and good solid research for the hath are system to treat those women and babies who don't make it to full term.