The Next Steps

I'm a bad blogger.  It's been quite awhile since I posted, and there is so much new news to share!  All very good, however, I promise!


Where to start...let's start with the adoption process.  We got approved!!  Very exciting news!  I contacted our social worker earlier this week and asked if she needed anything form us and she told us she had mailed her report to the agency.  I contacted the agency and they told us we could send our paperwork to start "listing" which means we are APPROVED!

We just finished our adoption profile book tonight.  It looks great, and I'm excited to share it. :)  We are just waiting for confirmation that we can have it printed and directly mailed to the agency and it will be on its way along with our application and fee for listing.  Then the REAL wait begins.  I'm thinking it will be a few months before we hear anything, but hey, at least we know our information is out there!

The second piece of news we got...we met with the Maternal Fetal Medicine (high risk OB, perinatologist, whatever you want to call them) doctor that delivered the boys a couple of weeks ago.  She gave us promising news.  Her bedside manner was much more our cup of tea and it just felt so much more comfortable.  She told us our chances of HELLP happening again are 5-20% rather than 50% like the previous doctor.  And she even said she felt we would be closer to 5% even!  Not that that's GREAT, but it's a heck of a lot better.  My chances of contracting HELLP before 30 weeks last time were 0.6%, so 5% seems like a huge number, but it's worth a shot.

She also told us we could consider getting pregnant again now if we wanted to.  After the only thing we focused on for 3.5 years was fertility, the idea of not focusing on it for the past 6 months has left me/us searching.  Now I at least feel like I have a focus again.  It's silly, but I think I almost define myself by the fact that I want to be a mom and the quest to become one.  I can't explain it.  It's all I've ever focused on...being a mom...it's been my dream since I was a little little girl...the idea of not getting there someday somehow is not an option for me.  And thankfully, my amazing husband feels the same way and supports the dream as well.  I'm a lucky girl.

The better news is despite the fact that I'm about 90% sure I have a cyst (thank you, PCOS), I seem to be having fairly regular cycles (if you consider unpredictability, but the presence of a close to monthly cycle normal).  Maybe we'll get lucky and everything will happen 100% naturally this time around...no fertility drugs, no needles, no procedures.  That would be a much better way of going about this as well!  Much healthier.  In the meantime, I'm working on continuing to eat healthy and continuing to lose the last remaining pounds to get back into a "normal" weight category.

So onward we go...moving forward one step at a time!